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ALLOHA folks! :D

Finally updating blog! It's wednesday already. What is this man! (*Walao, suddenly got thunder. Chua tio ley!*) Went for CCA showcase today. Lots and lots and lots of CCA! But alot opt out already. Only string ensemble interest me. Cello, I shall play you again~ Muahahaha! Hopefully, it'll be a fun CCA. Wanted bowling, buttttt need to pay $50/month ley! Don't think I wanna spent this amount of money yo. AIYA, buddha will decide what CCA I'm taking. Let's go with the flow! :D

How's life humans? Mine's finefinefine! I'm getting close with my SP's mates. But still a long way to go. Furthermore, I don't expect myself to know someone thoroughly within three weeks. GenEd is comingggg~ Need to know new people again. People from other schools. I mean still within SP laaa, but like engineering and etc. Hopefully, they're as friendly as business humans! :D Need to engage with new people=need to play good morning game again. But I guess, after three years, I'll know alot of people! Heh. Let's see shall we?

I'm feeling contradicted over Friday. Cause theres GenEd and clique outing~ I'm looking forward to our clique outing but not GenEd. Aishhhh, What is this. Forget it.
Yaynesssss! Friday we're heading out to eat good stuffs. Either steamboat/ chompchomp!~ Food food foodddd~ :D HEHE. I'm such a glutton!  Tmr's thurs, one more dayyy! LOOK FORWARD HOR! :D

if i knew this would happen, i'll choose another path and things will definitely be different. But still, reality is reality. What I can do is, continue on and put the past behind. Be it, i'm able to put down or not, i'll try. One day, everything will be let go. Definitely.

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Hello folks! It's Sunday the twenty fourth! Which means it's the annoying xz's birthday! (: HAPPYBIRTHDAY!!!!! Hahahahaha! So many humans birthday siol! Aigooo! I'm here just for the sake of updating! What is this!
Anw, there's this feeling I'm trying to get rid for the moment! How should I do it Uh? It's pretty difficult! It's been so long since the feeling came):! Aiya, forget about it! The more I talk about it, the more difficult it is!

Watching star awards now! Abit boring at some parts! Now is best actress! Fuck fuckfuck!!!! It's RuiEn!!!!!!!!!!! Finally finally finally! Rock on man!!!! Muahahahahahah!
Alrighty! That's all((:! I'm happy!(:

It's overrrrrr.

Anyeong folks! It's april 23rd! Which meansssssssssssssssssssssss , it's Ht's birthday! HAPPY BIRTHDAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! <3 Time flies isn't it? Again._.
Yesterday, went out to sentosa to celebrate ht's and xz's birthday. It's actually more like we wanted to go sentosa all along. LOL. And by chance, we postpone again and again, until it's near both of their birthday. Thus, we celebrate it tgt. And we finally went out laaaa. After twice postponing. Tch. But well, yesterday, it's fun? Idk. But I can say I was really tired. So weren't much myself.

I'm guessing, yesterday is going to be the 1st and last time we'll be going out tgt. Hah, thanks for coming^^. And then, I guess it's over. (: I'm satisfied.  


I guess, fun time is over now. I should start studying and doing my homework already. If not, I won't be able to catch up with others. And with my lazy-ness, theres always a tmr for me, but when you never realise it, tmr might just be the end. Aish.

And sometimes, people will be greedy. I've got this eew feelings. Idk why. I don't seem to be happy even though I seem so. Lols.
Whateverrrrrrrrrrrr~

Last but not least, a group photo for you! (:!

It's G-O-L-D once again!

Hi folks! :D

I AM HAPPY! Definitely! Even though I weren't part of them on stage, but still, I'm happy. Happy for them, happy that we got GOLD again, happy that it's GOLD! HAHAHAHA. The feeling of sitting inside the conference hall and waiting in school, is really different. Finally felt it today. It's really something you want to feel. And when you got what you want, the feeling is amazing and shioking! I can truly tell you that, when I was waiting for Yuying to be announce, the hand gradually grew cold, I was really nervous for them! EFFING! And what worst is when, the few schools infront of us is like Gold and GWH, you would feel really worried for them! But still, the moment ,
he announce......stopping at our school name, *everyone nervously waiting* and then "GOLD" just bloody came out from his mouth. And that's it! It's a moment to reminisce! 

I miss two years ago. I wished I were there again! I want to be on stage again. I really miss it.

And when you realised it's over, it's could be really over.

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HIHIHIHIHI!

Today's the official first day of school in poly! God, it's only the first day, and I've got the why-in-the-world-did-I-choose-this-course feel. HAHA. This means, theres alot of things I seriously don't understand man! But well, afterall it's only the first day, so I've still got chance to catch up^^. Furthermore, I'm not a genius here you know, certain subjects is my first time touching it, and it's totally off from what we're learning in secondary ley! So, give me some time. There's this thing I dread alot.....GenEd, what is this mannnn, need to mix with other people again. Play that good morning thing again. Gorgeous! Hopefully, those people I'm going to know is going to be friendly man, if not I'll hate GenEd for sure! Gahhhhh. And hopefully, my life in sp will get better. Sigh, looking at how it goes today, suddenly I dread going to school. How I wish, today is still december. But no, this is reality. It's April alr. & I can tell you, everything is really going fast in poly._.! Seriously hope I can cope well. Idk how if I were to not able to. And getting low GPA! That's what I dread most! D:

Alright, shall end here for today^^!

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Hello folkss!
Firstly, CONGRATS me on officially ending orientation! ^^
Secondly, FLAG DAY WAS SUCCESSFUL and tiring. I tell you la, flag day where got so xing nang one! See alot of rejecting face+hand signs today. D: The feeling sucks. So now, I'm gonna promise myself to donate to anyone doing flag day man. But of course, one la! I'm not that rich you know! My class is awesome! We collected a total of 2k+ man, idk if it's alot of not, but still it's the effort that counts^^!
Thirdly, TMR NO SCHOOL! Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! Can sleep late late late late late late! I think I'm jio-ing mum out to shop^^. It's been so long since I've went shopping with her man!
Fourthly, I'm sleeeeepyyyyyy~I'm gonna sleep soon, after my hair's dry! :x

Hmmmmmm, I'm lazy now! BYE!

Idk why.

Folkkkkks! Anyeong! Hmmmm, seems like i've been missing for the past three days. I apologise for it! :x Well, not many people read my post  isn't  it? LOL. I guess, it's for me only. Sighhh, shall go to the side to emo. ):
HAHAHA. JUST KIDDING~. Have been pretty busy that past two days. Was at sp for orientation. Theres only one word to describe it, TIRING! God, idk why, maybe it's just that i need to wake up pretty early for two days. And i ended sleeping before 9 yesterday man! Kinda broke my record. Yesterday was epic, I felt that I could just drop dead on my bed once I reached home. But well, can't possibly stand my dirty self. Tch. And dinner is a must for me~ I can actually give up dinner for my sleep man! But well, mum's cooking=compulsory.

DFI is amazing. I guess so. We're a small group though but still I think it's better, afterall, we'll have more attention from the lecturers. And, my classmates are finefinefine! Glad to know them~ All of them are friendly. Except those urm.....chinas'? Cause they came late on the first day and went missing on the second day? LOL. What can I say? Didn't really talk to them you know. I TELL YOU, I seriously am not cut up for amazing race. TSK! Cannot run la, you know D:! Then they still purposely station the games so far away, purposely make us run like maniacs from east to west and west to east. Arghhh!

Gotta report to school@ 10am tmrrrr~Congrats to me! Cause can sleep slightly later. But boo me, cause thursday I need to wake up @530! WHAT IS THIS D:! Tmr will be the most slack day! WEETS~ But I think the most boring amongst all?~ Ah well, gotta see then. Alright, I'm done with reporting^^!

Inyourworld,thereisn'tacien@all.I'mwhatyoucallastanger.Thismarkstheend.

有时笑容也会藏着悲伤。

Hi folks. (:
The sky's soooo gloomy now, it makes me gloomy as well. Afterall I'm alone at home now. Poor me. D: Also, school's making me gloomy toos. Idk if I should look forward to it or whatever! Tch.

有时，嘴里所说的没关系`，没事，我很好，没问题，也只是你所找来欺骗别人的回答。认为，嘴里说说就罢了。但其实，心里所想的跟嘴上的一句一字是相反的。

Lying to yourself to shun away from certain things from a moment wouldn't help.

Sigh. I'm pretty disappointed by myself. D:

The true feelings.

Anyeong folks. I guess today's post shall be long. Idk how many people would read , but all this are dedicated to people who made an impact or rather I have fond memories with. (:!

1: Jazreel Siew Xue Qian

Being the oldest closest friend of mine, I'm glad you existed in my life. Iloveyou for who you are and I don't expect you to change. I mean maybe somethings you should change la , such as your naggy-ness. HAHAHA. I'm glad , really glad that I know you. And I'm even more than glad that throughout the four years in Yuying , our relationship grew stronger. We know each other traits. But as much as I know yours, you knew lil of mine:x. Because, I'm not easy to understand. I apologise for that. And alot of things in your life I know it's difficult. But always, I'm willing to be your listening ears. and I don't expect anything to happen to you. Everytime I remember that you tell you me you wanna give up, I feel really really upset. Because the thought of losing you makes me feel like crying. And that particular day, when you told me you really feel like _ _ _ _ _ , I really cried. REALLY. I AM SERIOUS. I don't expect anything like that to happen to you. And now , probably by knowing church made you change your mindset. At least, I'm a lil glad. But at the same time probably I'm not. Idk why. But I've got no offence. I thank god for making you in my life. Knowing you is a fate. Nothing would change. And of course, I don't wish anything would change even we're now apart. We may talk very few nowadays. But still, I hope our bond would always remain. And I pray to my fullest, in your future, everything would be fine. Like seriously PEACEFUL! Thanks for being my friend and my love. Iloveyou!(:

2: Chee Xiu Zhen

You are, one of my most annoying friend sometimes! HAHA. I mean, i guess it's your way of entertaining people? In fact, I've got alot to confess. But still I don't dare to tell you:x. I don't wanna offend you. But I remember telling you. I hope you've changed. You can be lovely if you want to. And I seriously hate it when you're down. It seems like everything became so moody. Ihateit. Please be bubbly. I mean it seriously. Thanks for being in my life, when I felt really lonely last time, you were always there. I'm glad. Really glad to know you. Even for the future, if we were to meet by chance, don't walk away. At least , say a hi to me. Meet often kay? I'll miss you. & lastly, Iloveyou.

3: Lee Ting Xin.

Hey cat! :D You're the most easygoing girl i've known. SERIOUSLY! And I admire how you can bottle up your things to yourself. It's really admirable sometimes. But at times, I find it hurting? Maybe someday, you might find a real listening ears. And tx, you gotta learn to talk to people sometimes, you will know the people around you better. Trust me(:. Memories with you were always nice. The teasings, the you-can-take-anykind-of-teasing moments were fun. Especially when you're being bhb. I guess, now that i've become more bhb was cause by you! HAHAHA. Seriously. :x! Girl, stay cheerful as always. I will miss you cat eyes! & lastly, Iloveyou.

4: Tan Yi Chuan

HELLO! It's very contradicting how we became so close. It's like I lose someone to get to be closer with you. POA lessons was really nice with you around , but not when you're not. I felt lonely you know! D: But, I guess, everything was really fated. It's like if it weren't for her, everything would have been different. I cherish the moments we had and will never forget. You're nice girl. Thanks, thanks for being by side. I mean it. Really. Because you really did side me. Hopefully, being in the different school now wouldn't make a difference in our bond. And meet up as much as we can alrighty? (: I'll miss you and Iloveyou!

5: Belinda Liaw Yi Xiu.

ANYEONG! Belinda is the best best best girl! The thing about she always let people, and don't go against others makes me feel really great with her! Liaw ah, Iloveyou for who you are okay? Don't ask me the question over and over again, cause Iloveyou! HAHA. Even though I've known you less than 2years? I'm glad I know you and we became close! You're really nice. I mean it uh! Remember when we use to text everyday and every minute last time? I miss it. But now, I'm really lazy in texting._.! HAHAHA. You should know. And you are toos right? :x Belinda ah, don't be a camera shy anymore kay? See that picture above, even tx wanna chap in. D: Sobs~ Aish. Whatever it is, I'll miss you. And SARANGHAE~! 

6: Stephen Eng Thian Leng.

HELLO SISSY! :D Since sec 2 right? I'm really surprise we're close. Really very very very surprise. I don't know what to say. But I must tell you, you should change your character. Especially your that mouth, seriously must shut you up everytime! Tsk. &Thanks for sharing your stuffs, I'm glad that I'm one of them that you told to. :D! And I seriously cannot take your "eewness"! Tch. Hao la. I'll miss you even though we're still in the same school and Loves! :D

7: Clarence Neo Jia Jun(JIJI! :x)

Xiao di! Hello! I think, you're my one and only lil brother siol. LOL. How did this thing actually started hur? O.o Anw, you're fun to be with even though sometimes you may be annoying. Hehe:x! Eh, as you know, you're the only person that understand my situation the best and i think we two really are alike.And thank god, at times you're mature in thinking. AND GREAT MINDS THINK ALIKE RIGHT? :D I will miss you! Really! We're going to be apart but still meet up once in awhile yup?(: Loves. I think our best memory is *winkwink! :P

9: Tan Hui Ting.

My lovely daughter! :D We knew each other not vey long yup but we became pretty close! I'll miss the times that we go out tgt. Suddenly, I'm stuck with what I want to tell you. Dk why. Maybe cause we're talking now.  Aish. Whatever it is, even though we are going seperated paths now, but i still hope we'll meet up once in awhile. Also, I hope the bond between the two of us wouldn't change. Of course, I can't promise anything. Because, sometimes promises are meant to be broken. What to do? I can only try my best to keep us in contact. We can always text everyday like we're doing now! :D I'll miss you alot! And Iloveyou.

10: Cheryl Pang Li Han.

Anyeong! Hoi, daughter, I don't how did we manage to become so close in sucha few months. It's really amazing. We grew to the extend that we're sharing almost everything. And I really glad that I'm one of the few that you tell everything to. It's really nice and I'm really honoured. Like I said, I can't promise anything now. But I seriously hope that our relationship will last forever. Even until our death road. I don't know how we'll do in the future.But still, I hope everything will remain as it is. Like everyone said, if you really cherish that friendship, you'll make an effort with your heart. Everything lies in yourself. But of course, we, being in different school now, you'll make new friends and so do I. Things may be different the next time, but still I don't want us to drift apart. I like having heart to heart talk with you. To you, I seem vey apparent. I don't know why, but I can pour everything to you. Probably, I trust you to keep things between us. Even though we don't know each other for very long like I know others. But I cherish our friendship. And certainly, hoping this friendship will last. Iloveyou for who you are and don't change alright? You're a nice friend. Really nice friend and of course a nice daughter. (: Cheryl, in life we wish for many things, and one of my wish is of course, with our different pathways, we're still one. BFF shall we? & shall we promise each other something? Meet each other once a month even if we're busy with school? I'll miss you and Iloveyou.

Even though this may sound like something will end, but it's not gonna be so. I just think that, once school starts, everyone will be busy. So I've got the urge to post it. Today's post is longggg right?!@?@! :D I'm happy! :x

IwishIwishwithallmyheart.

FOLKS, I SAY HI , YOU SAY HELLO! :D
HAHAHA. Kay I'm laming. I know. :x
Time flies. I mean it seriously. Wednesday already you know? 4 more days , and school shall start. What's with the time? Not even bothering to stop once in awhile. Sigh. Out to Marina barrage today! Picnic pinic pinic~ And the sun sure loves me. But luckily we're under the shade. Weets. But I can tell you , it's effing warm. Tsk.


Sometimes, when I wonder why couldn't it be me, I would always sigh in defeat. But what if one day it actually is me and I didn't want it to be me , how would I actually react? Certain things comes and go, and anything could be under that category. Even love. Try thinking back why did you love him , you'll find yourself effing foolish. Just because, that certain lil thing or words that he do/spoke makes your heart wonders. Even if forever, you'll never know that Iloveyou, I rather make it a secret forever. Because, a coward like me can't confess it. I'm sorry. Call me a coward , because I know I am. Call me selfish, because I know you never love me back. Call me foolish, because Iloveyou. But don't call me an idiot, because I never regretted loving you.

Earthlings, ever thought why love existed? To make this world more meaningful, or make your life full of ups and down? In fact, when  you're upset/heartbroken, love to you meant hurt, but when everything is blissful, love to you means happiness. The word 'love', you successfully make us fall for you and fall out of you. Because at the same time, you can be as nice as giving us everything but also you can be as 'good' as taking away everything..

Spammmm~

Today is photos day! :D

They all are f-king loveddddd! ♥

The mix feelings of fuck-upness and emotionful-ness.

Hi folks.
Title seen , I guess you should I'm not feeling too good now. Though I won't show it fully budden I still feel like posting it. Again , again and again. I just don't understand wtf are they thinking. Come on , you don't really see those things happening on us can? Idk why , it's just another few more weeks ,can't you people just hang on? You think what you're doing now will fucking affect your future? Damn. You people just dk how to cherish such times. I guess, if you really do the next time , you will know how I'm feeling now. And for you , you can just don't tell me those ,you'll just made me feel like hating you. Suckup. Those bullshits. Those fucking bullshits! Those fucking irritating bullshits. Those fucking irritating ican'ttakeit bullishits. Enough. I don't wanna hear anymore. I'm letting my hands off. Don't have to tell me.

How funny , my title of my blog is telling you people to smile and yet i'm here posting those vulgarities. I'm sorry people. I just find it annoying. Honto Gomeinasai!

Alrighty. Shall end here.

Do something to make me forget you can? D: Disappear in my life. That's even better. Iwishyoudidn'texisted.