At this time, 5:59pm, thursday the 5th, I'm feeling utterly speechless.
imaybelookinghappybuti'mnot,deepdowni'muberjealous.whylikethat.ihatethis.idon'twanttofeelso.ifeeltheneedforsomeonetocheermeup,butnobodyknowsi'mfeelingverybadnow.whydothistome?whyalwaysme?whyamisuchacoward?iwanttobestrongerandstraightforwardlikeialwaysdoes.buttowardsyou,ifailedbadly.nomatterhowmanytimesitrytoencouragemyself,it'snotworking.reallynot.iguessbeccauseit'syou.
Ahhhh, got to stop being so emo~ HAHA. But I know i'm lying to myself. But give me some time. When I get use to everything, it'll be over. Just refrain from letting me seeing it again. Or not, i'll seriously begin to hate you/dislike you. The feeling is horrible i tell you. You should know very well. It seems like, you're rubbing salt to my wound. I don't know how to put it, but definitely, I'm jealous. For once, I'm assured. Very. The envy in me increases everytime, and idk if it will stop any sooner.
I may look like I don't care, but I do.
Saranghae folks! (:
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